Today is day 4 of avoiding tomatoes and I'm feeling a ton better. Not 100%, but much better than I was. I think I might also be feeling a bit lonely for male companionship. I saw Cookie last Thursday and his hugs may have triggered something. Some memory of how nice it is to feel … Continue reading Thoughts on trying to date again
Had drinks with Cookie after work yesterday. Hadn't seen him in a while and it was a lovely catch up. It was also my first time having a drink in almost two weeks, and I was amused as hell to find two glasses of wine made me slightly loopy. Fun times, though! We parted ways … Continue reading Cookie and weight loss. What a fun combination!
I keep thinking about dating. I have a feeling I will wind up signing back up for OkCupid sometime in the near future.The main thing stopping me is that I'm actually quite happy with how I'm spending my time these days. The idea of trying to fit in spending time with a guy doesn't have … Continue reading Dating vs being a crazy cat lady
I'll preface this by saying Plum Dating is in no way compensating me for signing up for the Plum Dating app or writing this review. Nobody at Plum Dating even knows I exist. I am simply a woman who has a lot of experience with dating apps and who was interested in the development and … Continue reading I tried the Plum Dating App. Here’s how it went.
It's now been a couple of weeks since I made the decision to put attempts at dating on pause for a little while. At first, the decision felt terrific. It was strong and empowering to recognize things weren't working. Taking a step back to regroup seemed like a reasonable idea. It was just one date. … Continue reading Which Feels Worse: Dating or Not Dating?
It was just one date. One date, a few weeks of messaging, and the hope of finding some joy in each other for a while. That hope is now gone. So it goes sometimes. My Nana used to say, "Oh well. Next!" It always made me laugh. She meant, I'm sure, that it's time to … Continue reading I break for joy
I received the following in a text from Chris yesterday: "I'm sorry but I have to cancel again. I'm just getting the feeling that my life is too messy to make plans right now. I'm sorry for being such a flake." And thus the burgeoning romance ends. Was it something I did? Something I said? … Continue reading “We’re out of romance, how about just the anxiety?”
Chris and I are going out again on Thursday and he's sending all the right signals. He's looking forward to seeing me. He can't wait. He's sorry it's taken so long. When I thought I might not hear from him and we might not have a second date I was sad but able to handle … Continue reading I’ll have the romance with the anxiety on the side, please
Therapy was really good this week. One of the many points discussed was how much I hate how badly I wish I had men in my life right now. I don't want to be someone who hates being alone. Dating should be a lovely extra in life, icing on a cake, so to speak. I've … Continue reading There’s no shame in loneliness (but I’m excited about a date with Chris anyway)
Old Self would have problem-solved these feelings of sadness I've been experiencing in recent months far better than New Self is doing. Old Self would have come up with a game plan and concrete action steps. Old Self would have project managed the shit out of it. New Self has this idea that the activities … Continue reading Depression and Exercise
Chris texted me. I'm floored to have heard from him and am struggling to think of a response. His message popped up on my phone yesterday afternoon. I'm doing pretty good. Thank you for asking. My sibs are in town now, so, sort of a shit show here :). Mom is suffering from kidney troubles, … Continue reading A Text from Chris
I looked at OkCupid yesterday and happened to notice my conversation with Chris is no longer there. This means one of two things happened. Either he unmatched with me, or he has disabled his account. My gut says it was the latter. My gut says his mother's "health issues" are fact, not falsehood, and things … Continue reading Still bummed about Chris
Friends, it's the weekend. We made it. And I had a whirlwind of a week. The Dud Date There was the date on Wednesday that wasn't canceled but may as well have been. I nervously talked the dude's ear off and there was little to no conversation flow. I felt like I had to think … Continue reading Weekly Round-Up: Cancelled Dates, Meatless Low Carb Chili, and Low-Fat Paleo Chili
Remembered feelings often don't match the realities written in the moment. Journaling holds one accountable, forces them to see what happened at any given time with greater clarity than could otherwise be achieved.
I'm still missing Goatee Guy. There. I said it. I've been trying and failing to deny these feelings. It's been three months since he ended things between us, and I still think about him and miss him. Particularly when I'm ovulating, because good lord were we physically compatible. And I miss it. He used to … Continue reading Missing Goatee Guy