Dad and Stepmom are the only people in the world I am fully myself with, and they are coming to visit. They will arrive on
Category: Narcissistic Abuse
Surprise! I like brandy.
It appears I like brandy. This is a surprise to me. I recall having tried brandy before, with eggnog. The Narcissist was a huge fan
Ghosts of Christmas Past and Present
It is Sunday evening of Thanksgiving weekend and I have a glass of eggnog heavily dosed with brandy beside me. My Christmas tree was bought
It’s okay to still be angry
Even years after going no contact the abuser will pop into your head sometimes. And it’s okay to feel a burst of rage at them.
Thoughts on trying to date again
Today is day 4 of avoiding tomatoes and I’m feeling a ton better. Not 100%, but much better than I was. I think I might
Appreciating Stillness
I spent my Friday night reading and listening to the sound of rain pounding down outside my windows. No screens. No music. No TV. (Benefits
Story ideas: imagined interactions
I still have conversations in my head with the exN a lot. (exN = the narcissistic ex-partner, otherwise referred to as, “the Narcissist.”) Often, I
The Horrible Hilarious Herb Scissors Happenstance
Day of joy post: June 13, 2017 I am unpacking in my new home. My things have been in storage for two months. It has
Is There Such A Thing As Narcissistic Abuse Recovery?
Is there such a thing as recovery from Narcissistic Abuse? Is it even possible? I keep thinking I’m there and that I’ve recovered. I’ve posted
Finally, No Contact
It’s been eight months since the day he threatened violence if I didn’t obey him, and since the day I ended our relationship. Two days ago, I was finally able to go no contact.
Two years removed
On this day in 2017: 8am: Set self up on couch, start work. 10:00am: Leave for escrow company to go sign the deed to the
Celebrating Past Successes
A wallop right in the gut hit me out of the blue the other day. Exactly two years prior, the Narcissist and I agreed on
Wait, There Are People Who Aren’t Jerks? — part deux
At the beginning of a relationship, things should feel good. If something feels off, it’s worth noticing.
Narcissistic Recovery: Bullied No More
Two years ago today is when the balance of power with the #exN started to shift. Man, did it feel good.
Narcissistic Recovery: And then one day, you feel okay.
If they tried to assert their dominance like they used to, you wouldn’t care anymore. You would see them for who they are; a scared, frightened, cowardly soul who is unable to confront the reality of their existence.