I knew that when I started to lose some weight it would come straight out of my tits and my belly would stay the same, but the exN used to argue with me about that. He actually wanted to convince me that he knew my body's patterns better than I did, even though he had … Continue reading It’s My Birthday (+ Brisket Recipe)
Very few of you comment directly on this blog. You will, however, contact me privately with your thoughts. I find this completely understandable; I rarely comment on blogs, either. I tend to doubt whether anything I might add to a conversation will have any value, and then decide it likely won't and return to watching … Continue reading Follow up: I shouldn’t want to be smaller and neither should you
I never realized that my cooking strategies were ADHD hacks until reading a recent post from Black Girl, Lost Keys: Ok, so lots of people don’t cook and they manage, right? So what if you have some challenges with cooking, you can always door dash it right? Here’s why we need to get cooking right. … Continue reading Six ADHD Cooking Hacks
The title of today's post could easily be the name of this blog but there's no way I'm ever going to summon the energy or motivation to change the whole damn thing. As is the case with many days, today did not turn out as planned. The intent was to go to work, leave at … Continue reading What I Was Going To Do vs. What Actually Happened (spoiler: it involves a new to me chili recipe)
When I don't have a torrent of emotional angst to release I struggle to write. It's easy to empathize with the great artists and writers who had emotional and mental health issues. When I'm in a dark place is when the words flow easiest. When I'm doing well? I haven't a clue what words are. … Continue reading I shouldn’t want to be a smaller size and neither should you
Had drinks with Cookie after work yesterday. Hadn't seen him in a while and it was a lovely catch up. It was also my first time having a drink in almost two weeks, and I was amused as hell to find two glasses of wine made me slightly loopy. Fun times, though! We parted ways … Continue reading Cookie and weight loss. What a fun combination!
Me: This is it! This is totally the week I'm going to start going to classes at the gym more regularly. I remembered to bring my gym bag with me to work and I'm ready and excited. Let's do this thing! Yeah! Gym: Hahahahaha sucker we're closed this week for maintenance. I was all excited … Continue reading Life’s crazy coincidences…
How many of you track your food intake? How long have you been doing so, and do you recall any revelations you had when you started? I resisted meal tracking like it was the devil. I assumed I would confirm, through tracking my food intake, that I was eating way more than my body physically … Continue reading What I’ve Learned From Two Weeks Using MyFitnessPal
I'm not overdoing anything. I'm stretching after each workout. I'm being gentle with my body and doing everything right. And yet, somehow, I've managed to hurt myself. Again. Like I always do. It's like my body just wasn't meant for exercise. Other people's are. Mine wants the couch and Chips Ahoy. The issue, this time, … Continue reading An exercise injury, yet again
I'm still struggling against wanting to lose weight and I'm frustrated by it. On some level I know my break from dating is in part because I don't feel good about my appearance. I don't want to feel like crap about how I look while I try to date. I want to feel confident and … Continue reading Friday joy and emotional struggles with size loss
Here's the thing about tracking my food intake: I'm learning that eating within a certain calorie range really isn't all that difficult for me. Take today, for example. I knew I was going to hang out with a girlfriend tonight to celebrate her buying a house (YAY FOR HER!!!), and I planned for it. I … Continue reading What I’m learning by tracking my food intake (plus, a couple of new recipes)
Recently my overeating (and drinking) started bothering me again. I don't think I'm binge eating nearly as much as I used to, if at all. I don't remember the last time I felt completely out of control and ate until I was in pain. The book I wrote about, Intuitive Eating, really was a game-changer … Continue reading Thoughts on Overeating
Riddle me this: How is it that on a week when I was far busier than usual I managed to get in more workouts instead of fewer?I worked out on Sunday and wasn't planning to do so again until Thursday. But then, a girlfriend and I had time to kill before meeting another friend for … Continue reading Achievement Unlocked: Exercise Level 2
It's counterintuitive to be afraid of being in a good mood. I know for other people, being in a good mood is just a normal thing. For me, it comes so rarely that it causes anxiety. I know that it is a fleeting thing. I don't know how long it is going to last. Inevitably, … Continue reading Anxious Happiness: How Long Will It Last?
This week is going to be busy. And I'm not stressed about that. In fact, I'm thrilled. It is the last week before my boss returns from a month-long vacation. There is a ton that I want to have finished before his return. I know I will conquer it. I have plans every night this … Continue reading Busy but Good