It is time to leave. Today, we will pack our belongings back into our cars and return to our homes. We will enjoy this last morning as much as others, with far too much food and far more full bellies than an average day. But there will be a different feel to the event, a … Continue reading Beach trip: last day
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Finding Courage To Ask For A Raise
I am 43 years old. I have been in the workforce since I was 14. I have been employed with my current company since I was 29. And until yesterday, I have never in my life asked for a raise. It's not clear to me when I first realized this was something I should, perhaps, … Continue reading Finding Courage To Ask For A Raise
Thoughts On “The Miniaturist” by Jessie Burton, ADHD, and Loneliness
I spent the last week transported into the 1600s in Amsterdam. It was winter, and it was cold. And I was very much alone, and very lonely. The reading project is going well. I have made it through The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern and The Miniaturist by Jessie Burton, and have now moved on … Continue reading Thoughts On “The Miniaturist” by Jessie Burton, ADHD, and Loneliness
Relaxing about appearances
People often don't understand how much preparation and forethought I put into how I look for random gatherings and events. It isn't consistent. It varies according to my mood and anxiety level. If I'm going to the house of a close friend to watch a movie, or to a casual brunch, or to grab coffee … Continue reading Relaxing about appearances
Failure to Connect (AITA?)
On Wednesday night, I was supposed to meet up for drinks with an old friend I hadn't seen in many years. We had texted on Sunday about it. Wednesday evening, we said. Neither of us could think of where to go, but we agreed we'd think on it and get back to one another. I … Continue reading Failure to Connect (AITA?)
Reconnecting with an old friend
I bought a silicone egg bite mold and made eggs last night in my instant pot. I love hard boiled eggs but, as easy as they are to make, I never get around to doing it. So, I fry eggs for my breakfast every morning. Making eggs in the silicone mold was perfect. Fast, easy, … Continue reading Reconnecting with an old friend
ADHD and Cleaning
What to do when you're terrible at keeping your home tidy but you really enjoy having your close friends over? Invite them over anyway. We all know people who will judge us for not keeping our homes spotless. They might even find the urge to open a closed door to see what's inside a room … Continue reading ADHD and Cleaning
Dementia Fears
The doctor's appointment to discuss the heading disorientation I experienced a few weeks ago is today. I'm nervous. If I'm being honest with myself (and her) my head doesn't feel quite right. It feels like my hold is fragile, but my hold on what, I'm not sure. Past posts on this topic:* That’s me in … Continue reading Dementia Fears
Thoughts on trying to date again
Today is day 4 of avoiding tomatoes and I'm feeling a ton better. Not 100%, but much better than I was. I think I might also be feeling a bit lonely for male companionship. I saw Cookie last Thursday and his hugs may have triggered something. Some memory of how nice it is to feel … Continue reading Thoughts on trying to date again
Appreciating Stillness
I spent my Friday night reading and listening to the sound of rain pounding down outside my windows. No screens. No music. No TV. (Benefits of a Digital or Screen Detox for ADHD Symptoms) Just the tap tap tap tap tap of raindrops on the metal of my oven vent and the shhhhh of water … Continue reading Appreciating Stillness
Heading Disorientation: Information Needed
The other day I wrote about an episode when I couldn't figure out where I was and it freaked me out. I lost where I was again. My brain fritzed out. I had no idea where I was. I couldn’t figure it out. I froze.My chest constricted and tears welled up and I looked around blankly, … Continue reading Heading Disorientation: Information Needed
Benefits of a Digital or Screen Detox for ADHD Symptoms
Last night, I did not do a digital or screen detox. "Hocus Pocus" was trending on Twitter for a while yesterday. As I had nothing on my calendar last night and planned to paint my nails anyway, how I was going to spend my evening seemed predestined. In a general sense, though, attempting a screen … Continue reading Benefits of a Digital or Screen Detox for ADHD Symptoms
That’s me in the spotlight, losing my direction
Goddammit. Just, fuck. Goddammit. I lost where I was again. My brain fritzed out and I had no idea where I was. I couldn't figure it out. I froze. My chest constricted and tears welled up and I looked around blankly, trying to figure out where the fuck I was and how to get where … Continue reading That’s me in the spotlight, losing my direction
ADHD and me
As mentioned yesterday (You Can't Go Back [update]), my memory is horrible. I remember mentioning it yesterday. I do not, however, remember writing about ADHD on this blog before now. Since I have a terrible memory, I did a search for ADHD. On my own blog. To find out if I've written about ADHD. Because … Continue reading ADHD and me
Glad To Live in a World with Octobers
Autumn is a new beginning. Not just because of the ingrained rhythm of the beginning of the school year, but also, the Jewish New Year and my birthday. Everything starts fresh in autumn. Plus, autumn brings cooler temperatures and clothing styles I am more comfortable in. Nothing puts me in a good mood quite like … Continue reading Glad To Live in a World with Octobers