I’m not okay, and I know it’s okay to not be okay, and I’m being patient and accepting of the not-okay. It’s been hard, though,
Tag: anxious
Day 95: Allowing Sadness to Set In
I won’t lie, the anxiety and isolation are definitely starting to get to me. The other night I was unable to fall asleep because I
Day 61: Using Control Techniques for Anxiety Management
I overslept by almost an hour this morning and am, as a result, feeling panicked. It is 7:30 now and I am forcing myself to
Day 41: Exercising for Emotional Strength
It feels like the Nothing is catching up to me and I’m going to fall into a depressive cycle at any moment. I’m spending my
Day 38: Light Dawns
It’s one thing to have a logical understanding of something. It’s another thing entirely to experience the emotions of that thing. And it’s yet a
Day 36: Going out alone
Yesterday’s achievement was I went to a movie. That’s it. That’s the accomplishment. I love going to movies and have told myself for many years
Thanksgiving and taking stock of 2019
It’s been a shit few years or so. 2019 is the first one that’s ending on a true, sustainable upswing. It’s Thanksgiving week, and I
Relaxing about appearances
People often don’t understand how much preparation and forethought I put into how I look for random gatherings and events. It isn’t consistent. It varies
Reconnecting with an old friend
I bought a silicone egg bite mold and made eggs last night in my instant pot. I love hard boiled eggs but, as easy as
ADHD and not wanting to work
As I write this, it’s Monday. It’s Monday and I hate it. I want more weekend. I wish I didn’t have to go to work
Digital Detox Update: Books! So Many Books!
If you’ve never tried a digital detox, even a small one, I highly recommend doing so, particularly if, like me, you are often anxious and
Anxious Happiness: How Long Will It Last?
It’s counterintuitive to be afraid of being in a good mood. I know for other people, being in a good mood is just a normal
On exercise, depression, anxiety, and laziness
Thoughts on exercise, one month ago today It’s 6:00 AM. I have my coffee beside me and my cat, Abigail, curled up on my lap.
It’s Not Me, It’s Him
It’s a feeling about a fantasy scenario. It’s a big feeling, an intense feeling, and it’s about a nonexistent situation.
Cookie, and Calming an Anxious Attachment Style
Instead of, “Hey, this is nice. How lovely,” the heart screams, “Let’s think about how awful it will feel if this ends.”