If they tried to assert their dominance like they used to, you wouldn't care anymore. You would see them for who they are; a scared, frightened, cowardly soul who is unable to confront the reality of their existence.
C-PTSD
Regrets
For the first time in ages, I have a Saturday with nothing on my calendar. One of the things that kept me so busy recently was a writing workshop on Creative Nonfiction. It was absolutely a delight, but it was also emotionally draining. The primary piece I submitted for critique was a longer, more thorough … Continue reading Regrets
Why I Won’t Go Dark
A thought. Now might not be the right time to disappear. Now might not be the right time to be silent. Now might not be the right time to show the world what things would be like without you around. Now might be the time to be loud. Now just might be the right time … Continue reading Why I Won’t Go Dark
Narcissistic Recovery: Cognitive Function
I've been very frustrated with my writing lately. Whenever I sit down to write I have a blog post as a goal. I've lost my ability to free-form write and get out what's in my heart without thinking of an audience. I know I'm not getting down first thoughts. I'm censoring myself. More importantly, I'm also … Continue reading Narcissistic Recovery: Cognitive Function
When the PTSD Hits (Warning: Potential Triggers)
I did not have a full-blown PTSD episode yesterday. I was able to navigate it and stay present. I had a toothache and I went to the dentist. In testing cold sensitivity, he ran a q-tip with some liquid nitrogen on it across my tooth. The cold was horrible. I felt violated and angry to … Continue reading When the PTSD Hits (Warning: Potential Triggers)
Depressive Cycles: Learning What’s Real
I want to write for a living but I fear I'm a terrible writer. I am ashamed of my desires and think it's unlikely I'll succeed in realizing them. I sit here with my morning coffee and I want to cry. I want to weep for all I am not and am unlikely to ever … Continue reading Depressive Cycles: Learning What’s Real