I’m not okay, and I know it’s okay to not be okay, and I’m being patient and accepting of the not-okay. It’s been hard, though,
Tag: Depressive Cycles
Day 95: Allowing Sadness to Set In
I won’t lie, the anxiety and isolation are definitely starting to get to me. The other night I was unable to fall asleep because I
Day 80: Work It
Anyone who has read this blog for a while knows when I get down, I want to find a solution for it. I want to
Day 69: Cover letters and weight loss
TW: Weight loss and dieting First of all, please send all the best of vibes that this sweet silly boy finds his way home soon.
Days 67 & 68: Unemployment Anxiety and Depression
I had a panic attack on Sunday and broke down in sobs for a while. I was rendered incoherent while taken over by the kind
Days 46 and 47: Whatever.
I was (am) still feeling down in the dumps about Valentine’s Day, and I had to keep an eye on work all weekend, and overall
Day 45: You Are Loved
As I write this, it’s 4:45 pm on Friday evening. It is Valentine’s Day. I’m alone with my cats and drinking my second glass of
Day 41: Exercising for Emotional Strength
It feels like the Nothing is catching up to me and I’m going to fall into a depressive cycle at any moment. I’m spending my
Day 40: The Nothing Wears Me Down
It is Monday morning. My house is clean and my body is sore. I overslept and I plan to work from home today. I dusted,
Day 39: The Nothing Gets Stronger
I went and had dinner with friends. It was good to be around people. And yet, the Nothing lingers. It crept in a bit on
Day 38: Light Dawns
It’s one thing to have a logical understanding of something. It’s another thing entirely to experience the emotions of that thing. And it’s yet a
Day 36: Going out alone
Yesterday’s achievement was I went to a movie. That’s it. That’s the accomplishment. I love going to movies and have told myself for many years
Day 34: One Thing Isn’t Everything
Wow, did I sleep well last night. I was so tired all day yesterday (Monday, am I right?) that I crashed out at 8:30 and
Day 33: Finding Balance
Yesterday’s accomplishment was realizing I need to find balance as I fight the Nothing (which is what I’ve started calling the Spring through Summer seasonal
Day 32: February begins
February. My annual countdown to changing the clocks has begun. It’ll be thirty-five more days, in case you were curious. The early nightfall is adorable