Very few of you comment directly on this blog. You will, however, contact me privately with your thoughts. I find this completely understandable; I rarely comment on blogs, either. I tend to doubt whether anything I might add to a conversation will have any value, and then decide it likely won't and return to watching … Continue reading Follow up: I shouldn’t want to be smaller and neither should you
When I don't have a torrent of emotional angst to release I struggle to write. It's easy to empathize with the great artists and writers who had emotional and mental health issues. When I'm in a dark place is when the words flow easiest. When I'm doing well? I haven't a clue what words are. … Continue reading I shouldn’t want to be a smaller size and neither should you
Had drinks with Cookie after work yesterday. Hadn't seen him in a while and it was a lovely catch up. It was also my first time having a drink in almost two weeks, and I was amused as hell to find two glasses of wine made me slightly loopy. Fun times, though! We parted ways … Continue reading Cookie and weight loss. What a fun combination!
How many of you track your food intake? How long have you been doing so, and do you recall any revelations you had when you started? I resisted meal tracking like it was the devil. I assumed I would confirm, through tracking my food intake, that I was eating way more than my body physically … Continue reading What I’ve Learned From Two Weeks Using MyFitnessPal
Planned dinner: taco chili. It was already in the fridge, in a pre-portioned container. I made the chili the other day and it's delicious. I'd eaten it for several meals already. Actual dinner: a whole order of cheesy garlic breadsticks, half a 15" pepperoni pizza, and half a bottle of wine. Maybe it was the … Continue reading Overate again, and that’s okay
I'm still struggling against wanting to lose weight and I'm frustrated by it. On some level I know my break from dating is in part because I don't feel good about my appearance. I don't want to feel like crap about how I look while I try to date. I want to feel confident and … Continue reading Friday joy and emotional struggles with size loss
Here's the thing about tracking my food intake: I'm learning that eating within a certain calorie range really isn't all that difficult for me. Take today, for example. I knew I was going to hang out with a girlfriend tonight to celebrate her buying a house (YAY FOR HER!!!), and I planned for it. I … Continue reading What I’m learning by tracking my food intake (plus, a couple of new recipes)
Recently my overeating (and drinking) started bothering me again. I don't think I'm binge eating nearly as much as I used to, if at all. I don't remember the last time I felt completely out of control and ate until I was in pain. The book I wrote about, Intuitive Eating, really was a game-changer … Continue reading Thoughts on Overeating
I'm incredibly nervous about meeting Christopher Gorham. I'm convinced he won't want to get to know me, primarily because I have become so fat.
I am trying to get better regarding my nutritional intake. I follow a Paleo lifestyle and have done so for years. Avoiding sugar, gluten and dairy is routine for me. Keeping my body nourished makes it easier to stay grounded and present. My brain stays with me rather than getting lost in past trauma. The … Continue reading Nutrition and Depression/Anxiety