I continue to be amazed by my lack of pain. Every movement is a joy and I am constantly on the verge of bursting into happy sobs. When I rise from a seated position... nothing. I stand at the kitchen counter... and I'm totally fine. Bending to pick something up? No problem. It's consuming, these … Continue reading Flabbergasted and Joyous
All week I've been in unbelievable pain. My hip and lower back were acting up again. It's something that has always bothered me and it has gotten worse with age. I always assumed the root cause was something that was my fault. This was what I was told by various medical professionals. It was my … Continue reading Finally! A Relief From Pain!
"Blinding pain" is one of those expressions one reads and hopes to never fully understand. It's an apt description, though. There is a certain degree of pain that will make your vision swim, will make your world turn white. I never, before now, understood what a full 10 on a pain level scale felt like. … Continue reading Blinding Pain
Is it normal for problems to become even more agonizingly painful shortly after starting physical therapy? At much urging from friends, I finally looked into seeing a physical therapist for my hip and lower back issues. My first appointment was Friday. Today is Wednesday. There are a few stretches and core strengthening exercises that were … Continue reading A Day of Agonizing Pain
The doctor's appointment to discuss the heading disorientation I experienced a few weeks ago is today. I'm nervous. If I'm being honest with myself (and her) my head doesn't feel quite right. It feels like my hold is fragile, but my hold on what, I'm not sure. Past posts on this topic:* That’s me in … Continue reading Dementia Fears
How the hell do you keep an exercise routine going when you feel like utter shit most of the time? I have sinus headaches that I've been getting since I was a kid. I don't know what causes them. In the past, they were thought to be sinus infections and I was given antibiotics anytime … Continue reading Not enough spoons for an exercise routine
Had drinks with Cookie after work yesterday. Hadn't seen him in a while and it was a lovely catch up. It was also my first time having a drink in almost two weeks, and I was amused as hell to find two glasses of wine made me slightly loopy. Fun times, though! We parted ways … Continue reading Cookie and weight loss. What a fun combination!
Me: This is it! This is totally the week I'm going to start going to classes at the gym more regularly. I remembered to bring my gym bag with me to work and I'm ready and excited. Let's do this thing! Yeah! Gym: Hahahahaha sucker we're closed this week for maintenance. I was all excited … Continue reading Life’s crazy coincidences…
I'm not overdoing anything. I'm stretching after each workout. I'm being gentle with my body and doing everything right. And yet, somehow, I've managed to hurt myself. Again. Like I always do. It's like my body just wasn't meant for exercise. Other people's are. Mine wants the couch and Chips Ahoy. The issue, this time, … Continue reading An exercise injury, yet again
Riddle me this: How is it that on a week when I was far busier than usual I managed to get in more workouts instead of fewer?I worked out on Sunday and wasn't planning to do so again until Thursday. But then, a girlfriend and I had time to kill before meeting another friend for … Continue reading Achievement Unlocked: Exercise Level 2
It's counterintuitive to be afraid of being in a good mood. I know for other people, being in a good mood is just a normal thing. For me, it comes so rarely that it causes anxiety. I know that it is a fleeting thing. I don't know how long it is going to last. Inevitably, … Continue reading Anxious Happiness: How Long Will It Last?
This week is going to be busy. And I'm not stressed about that. In fact, I'm thrilled. It is the last week before my boss returns from a month-long vacation. There is a ton that I want to have finished before his return. I know I will conquer it. I have plans every night this … Continue reading Busy but Good
Thoughts on exercise, one month ago today It's 6:00 AM. I have my coffee beside me and my cat, Abigail, curled up on my lap. It's cool in my house, far cooler than it's been these past few days. When I rose out of bed I ditched my lightweight summer nightgown and threw on a … Continue reading On exercise, depression, anxiety, and laziness
I struggle with exercise in a huge way. If I manage to get into it at all, whatever habits I build don't last long. It seems whenever I find something I like, it loses its luster quickly. This has happened in the past with many different things. Cardio, strength training, various videos for both, various … Continue reading Why the hell did I go to an advanced level Zumba class?
When I look outside what is going on in my own little life, I don't see much to feel joy about. This makes writing this post even more useful than usual this week. If I didn't make an effort to find the joy, I doubt I'd be doing well right now. The Narcissist-in-Chief The week … Continue reading Friday Joy: 8/8/2019. Getting Stronger.