I’m not okay, and I know it’s okay to not be okay, and I’m being patient and accepting of the not-okay. It’s been hard, though,
Tag: fear

Day 41: Exercising for Emotional Strength
It feels like the Nothing is catching up to me and I’m going to fall into a depressive cycle at any moment. I’m spending my

Day 38: Light Dawns
It’s one thing to have a logical understanding of something. It’s another thing entirely to experience the emotions of that thing. And it’s yet a

Day 4: The Unf*cking Continues
Yesterday was day 4 of the challenge to honor achievements rather than focus on failures, and I proudly made progress in this regard. Did you?

Romance: The Ultimate Fantasy
I am afraid of dating and romance. I am hiding myself away for fear of experiencing more hurt. I trust myself to heal from emotional

Reconnecting with an old friend
I bought a silicone egg bite mold and made eggs last night in my instant pot. I love hard boiled eggs but, as easy as
Financial solutions and headway disorientation update
I’m terrible at managing my finances. Well, rather, I’m quite good at managing my finances, in that I know exactly how much is left after

Thoughts on trying to date again
Today is day 4 of avoiding tomatoes and I’m feeling a ton better. Not 100%, but much better than I was. I think I might
Anxious Happiness: How Long Will It Last?
It’s counterintuitive to be afraid of being in a good mood. I know for other people, being in a good mood is just a normal

Anxiety Trigger: My Brother’s Wedding
Anxiety Trigger: My Brother’s Wedding. When I first learned of my brother’s engagement, I collapsed and had a sobbing fit. It was awful. This weekend is the wedding and I am not doing well.

“But What If He Finds Your Blog?”
“But what if he sees this?” What if the Narcissist sees what I’ve been writing? What if he finds my blog? I wrote a bit