I’m not okay, and I know it’s okay to not be okay, and I’m being patient and accepting of the not-okay. It’s been hard, though,
Tag: fighting depression

Day 96: Taking things one day at a time
Yesterday, I achieved the impossible. I achieved balance. I woke up early, as I usually tend to. I worked out. I did laundry. I vacuumed.

Day 95: Allowing Sadness to Set In
I won’t lie, the anxiety and isolation are definitely starting to get to me. The other night I was unable to fall asleep because I

Days 67 & 68: Unemployment Anxiety and Depression
I had a panic attack on Sunday and broke down in sobs for a while. I was rendered incoherent while taken over by the kind

Day 48: 100% Successful
When I was 12 years old, my parents sat down with my siblings and me and told us they were getting a divorce. The date

Days 46 and 47: Whatever.
I was (am) still feeling down in the dumps about Valentine’s Day, and I had to keep an eye on work all weekend, and overall

Day 45: You Are Loved
As I write this, it’s 4:45 pm on Friday evening. It is Valentine’s Day. I’m alone with my cats and drinking my second glass of

Day 43: Book Worm
What did I do for myself yesterday? What did I achieve? This question is harder than usual today. I went for a walk and I

Day 41: Exercising for Emotional Strength
It feels like the Nothing is catching up to me and I’m going to fall into a depressive cycle at any moment. I’m spending my

Day 40: The Nothing Wears Me Down
It is Monday morning. My house is clean and my body is sore. I overslept and I plan to work from home today. I dusted,

Day 39: The Nothing Gets Stronger
I went and had dinner with friends. It was good to be around people. And yet, the Nothing lingers. It crept in a bit on

Day 38: Light Dawns
It’s one thing to have a logical understanding of something. It’s another thing entirely to experience the emotions of that thing. And it’s yet a

Day 34: One Thing Isn’t Everything
Wow, did I sleep well last night. I was so tired all day yesterday (Monday, am I right?) that I crashed out at 8:30 and

Day 33: Finding Balance
Yesterday’s accomplishment was realizing I need to find balance as I fight the Nothing (which is what I’ve started calling the Spring through Summer seasonal

Day 32: February begins
February. My annual countdown to changing the clocks has begun. It’ll be thirty-five more days, in case you were curious. The early nightfall is adorable