It is Sunday evening of Thanksgiving weekend and I have a glass of eggnog heavily dosed with brandy beside me. My Christmas tree was bought and decorated this weekend. I am admiring it as I type. Oliver the Cat is unimpressed A couple of friends helped me with the tree. We decorated while sipping a … Continue reading Ghosts of Christmas Past and Present
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Thoughts On “The Miniaturist” by Jessie Burton, ADHD, and Loneliness
I spent the last week transported into the 1600s in Amsterdam. It was winter, and it was cold. And I was very much alone, and very lonely. The reading project is going well. I have made it through The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern and The Miniaturist by Jessie Burton, and have now moved on … Continue reading Thoughts On “The Miniaturist” by Jessie Burton, ADHD, and Loneliness
Reconnecting with an old friend
I bought a silicone egg bite mold and made eggs last night in my instant pot. I love hard boiled eggs but, as easy as they are to make, I never get around to doing it. So, I fry eggs for my breakfast every morning. Making eggs in the silicone mold was perfect. Fast, easy, … Continue reading Reconnecting with an old friend
Missing a Best Friend after a Break Up
Eight years ago this week I broke up with my best friend of twenty-five years. It had to be done. She had been verbally abusive and controlling when we were younger, and as we got older it became worse. This was true even though we lived on opposite sides of the country from one another. … Continue reading Missing a Best Friend after a Break Up
Staying Grounded While Being More Social
Underneath it all, I'm still lonely and miserable, but I'm doing my best to focus on the moment and be my best self in each situation I'm in. This means performing well at work, trying to eat well and exercise, keeping my head on straight as I flow through life. It isn't easy right now. … Continue reading Staying Grounded While Being More Social
Depression’s Lies and Loveability (Travel Revelations)
It's so amazing and rare to find someone you enjoy traveling with. It's even more amazing to spend ten straight days together, then miss the person when you part. We met in college, in the fall of 1998. By the end of the semester, when he left to go home to Ireland for a month … Continue reading Depression’s Lies and Loveability (Travel Revelations)
Relationships, Revelations, and Healing
I looked at the new supply's Facebook profile again yesterday morning. I look every once in a while with the hope I'll see some indication she has ended her relationship with the Narcissist. I think of her with less and less frequency as time goes by, but always with a little internal prayer for the … Continue reading Relationships, Revelations, and Healing
Body Image Musings
Me: Will you take some photos of me to use for online dating while we're working in your yard today? Friend: YES! Me: Awesome! I want some full body shots in workout clothes so guys will know what they're getting and nobody is pretending anything. Friend: I think you're being a bit negative about the … Continue reading Body Image Musings
Narcissistic Recovery: Oh how I’ve changed
I went to a birthday party for a friend last night. A large birthday party. With lots of people. I was terrified and had a couple meltdowns before leaving the house, but I made it there and got through the whole evening without having an anxiety attack. Woohoo! For the most part, it was delightfully … Continue reading Narcissistic Recovery: Oh how I’ve changed
Depression, Anxiety and ADHD
Sometimes, let’s face it, I sit down to do my daily writing practice and I’ve got nothing. I have no idea what to write about. I want to access something deep and meaningful inside me and there’s nothing there. It’s a blank slate. There are things I’m thinking about but they’re all swirling in a … Continue reading Depression, Anxiety and ADHD
Narcissistic Recovery: Learning to Laugh Again
Sometimes I don't want to see my friends. They are my soul mates, my spirit guides, my urban family. For ten years we have spent every holiday and every birthday together. They have seen me through two devastating break ups. They have seen the light in me thousands of times when I haven't. They bring … Continue reading Narcissistic Recovery: Learning to Laugh Again