Underneath it all, I'm still lonely and miserable, but I'm doing my best to focus on the moment and be my best self in each situation I'm in. This means performing well at work, trying to eat well and exercise, keeping my head on straight as I flow through life. It isn't easy right now. … Continue reading Staying Grounded While Being More Social
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Depression’s Lies and Loveability (Travel Revelations)
It's so amazing and rare to find someone you enjoy traveling with. It's even more amazing to spend ten straight days together, then miss the person when you part. We met in college, in the fall of 1998. By the end of the semester, when he left to go home to Ireland for a month … Continue reading Depression’s Lies and Loveability (Travel Revelations)
Relationships, Revelations, and Healing
I looked at the new supply's Facebook profile again yesterday morning. I look every once in a while with the hope I'll see some indication she has ended her relationship with the Narcissist. I think of her with less and less frequency as time goes by, but always with a little internal prayer for the … Continue reading Relationships, Revelations, and Healing
Body Image Musings
Me: Will you take some photos of me to use for online dating while we're working in your yard today? Friend: YES! Me: Awesome! I want some full body shots in workout clothes so guys will know what they're getting and nobody is pretending anything. Friend: I think you're being a bit negative about the … Continue reading Body Image Musings
Narcissistic Recovery: Oh how I’ve changed
I went to a birthday party for a friend last night. A large birthday party. With lots of people. I was terrified and had a couple meltdowns before leaving the house, but I made it there and got through the whole evening without having an anxiety attack. Woohoo! For the most part, it was delightfully … Continue reading Narcissistic Recovery: Oh how I’ve changed
Depression, Anxiety and ADHD
Sometimes, let’s face it, I sit down to do my daily writing practice and I’ve got nothing. I have no idea what to write about. I want to access something deep and meaningful inside me and there’s nothing there. It’s a blank slate. There are things I’m thinking about but they’re all swirling in a … Continue reading Depression, Anxiety and ADHD
Narcissistic Recovery: Learning to Laugh Again
Sometimes I don't want to see my friends. They are my soul mates, my spirit guides, my urban family. For ten years we have spent every holiday and every birthday together. They have seen me through two devastating break ups. They have seen the light in me thousands of times when I haven't. They bring … Continue reading Narcissistic Recovery: Learning to Laugh Again