This is not another piece about how to maintain one's diet through the holidays. This is a piece about saying fuck it to that nonsense. I've lost 15 pounds since August and that's pretty great. I've found nutritional strategies that work for me both physically and emotionally. Here's why it's working, though, and why I … Continue reading Thanksgiving Day Diet Strategy
It’s been a shit few years or so. 2019 is the first one that’s ending on a true, sustainable upswing. It’s Thanksgiving week, and I am thinking of all the things for which I am thankful. A friend commented the other day that 2019 has been the year of Suzanne, and I realized she was … Continue reading Thanksgiving and taking stock of 2019
I continue to be amazed by my lack of pain. Every movement is a joy and I am constantly on the verge of bursting into happy sobs. When I rise from a seated position... nothing. I stand at the kitchen counter... and I'm totally fine. Bending to pick something up? No problem. It's consuming, these … Continue reading Flabbergasted and Joyous
All week I've been in unbelievable pain. My hip and lower back were acting up again. It's something that has always bothered me and it has gotten worse with age. I always assumed the root cause was something that was my fault. This was what I was told by various medical professionals. It was my … Continue reading Finally! A Relief From Pain!
Yesterday morning, I bemoaned not having a partner to help me while I'm laid up with back pain. Later in the day, I found a solution. I hired someone from taskrabbit to come help me with some chores. I found a solution I'm comfortable with, and I'm proud of this. Here is what I wrote … Continue reading Taking care of business
"Blinding pain" is one of those expressions one reads and hopes to never fully understand. It's an apt description, though. There is a certain degree of pain that will make your vision swim, will make your world turn white. I never, before now, understood what a full 10 on a pain level scale felt like. … Continue reading Blinding Pain
Is it normal for problems to become even more agonizingly painful shortly after starting physical therapy? At much urging from friends, I finally looked into seeing a physical therapist for my hip and lower back issues. My first appointment was Friday. Today is Wednesday. There are a few stretches and core strengthening exercises that were … Continue reading A Day of Agonizing Pain
Yesterday, I did something I always mean to do on Sundays and never actually get around to. I prepped my meals for the week. I'm not sure why, but I woke up with energy. Granted, my intent had been to use that energy to tidy up my living room, so I can take photos and … Continue reading Food Prep Day!
TGIF. This whole week has been an endless slog through horrible exhaustion. The clocks changing seem to impact me differently than others. I don't understand it. I was more tired each day than I was the day before and I'm desperately hoping this weekend will allow me to fully adjust to our new time zone. … Continue reading Time change lag and executive dysfunction
I'm supposed to be avoiding hot peppers (including chili flakes and chili powder and hot sauces) but... No. I've done a lot of elimination diets over the years. This is the first time one has bested me. Gluten. Sugar. Dairy. Alcohol. Now tomatoes and all other nightshades. More posts on hot pepper dismay:A life without … Continue reading Giving Up: You Win, Hot Peppers
Once a year I indulge in stuffed squash for dinner. A whole acorn squash, with maple syrup and brown sugar and butter, and that's it. That's dinner. I love it and it feels ridiculously indulgent. Usually I watch Hocus Pocus while I eat. Last night was the night for this annual ritual. I bought the … Continue reading A healthy unhealthy dinner: Maple and brown sugar acorn squash
The doctor's appointment to discuss the heading disorientation I experienced a few weeks ago is today. I'm nervous. If I'm being honest with myself (and her) my head doesn't feel quite right. It feels like my hold is fragile, but my hold on what, I'm not sure. Past posts on this topic:* That’s me in … Continue reading Dementia Fears
I dreamed about pastries last night. Éclairés, mainly, but others as well. My dream had me in Quincy Market in downtown Boston. Not in the center hallway, but in one of the hallways just outside the building, where there are always dozens of carts selling a variety of wares. I stood in front of a … Continue reading A life without hot peppers? How will I survive?
Very few of you comment directly on this blog. You will, however, contact me privately with your thoughts. I find this completely understandable; I rarely comment on blogs, either. I tend to doubt whether anything I might add to a conversation will have any value, and then decide it likely won't and return to watching … Continue reading Follow up: I shouldn’t want to be smaller and neither should you
When I don't have a torrent of emotional angst to release I struggle to write. It's easy to empathize with the great artists and writers who had emotional and mental health issues. When I'm in a dark place is when the words flow easiest. When I'm doing well? I haven't a clue what words are. … Continue reading I shouldn’t want to be a smaller size and neither should you