Dad and Stepmom are the only people in the world I am fully myself with, and they are coming to visit. They will arrive on
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Surprise! I like brandy.
It appears I like brandy. This is a surprise to me. I recall having tried brandy before, with eggnog. The Narcissist was a huge fan
Ghosts of Christmas Past and Present
It is Sunday evening of Thanksgiving weekend and I have a glass of eggnog heavily dosed with brandy beside me. My Christmas tree was bought
Thanksgiving and taking stock of 2019
It’s been a shit few years or so. 2019 is the first one that’s ending on a true, sustainable upswing. It’s Thanksgiving week, and I
Introducing: My Next Boyfriend
There is a new man in my life. I haven’t spoken of him yet, mostly because I haven’t been able to figure out how. But
It’s okay to still be angry
Even years after going no contact the abuser will pop into your head sometimes. And it’s okay to feel a burst of rage at them.
Three Years of Freedom
Trying to go for a short walk yesterday was brutal. I wanted to at least try to get a little exercise, but I was so
Story ideas: imagined interactions
I still have conversations in my head with the exN a lot. (exN = the narcissistic ex-partner, otherwise referred to as, “the Narcissist.”) Often, I
The Horrible Hilarious Herb Scissors Happenstance
Day of joy post: June 13, 2017 I am unpacking in my new home. My things have been in storage for two months. It has
You CAN Go Home Again!
I keep wishing I lived closer to family. I caught myself noticing for sale signs on houses and paying attention when we passed condo complexes.
Finally, No Contact
It’s been eight months since the day he threatened violence if I didn’t obey him, and since the day I ended our relationship. Two days ago, I was finally able to go no contact.
Love Doesn’t Mean Leaning
After a while you learn the subtle difference Between holding a hand and chaining a soul, And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning And
Narcissist Recovery: Boldness and the Return of Confidence
The Narcissist told me I was nothing. He led me to believe I was unintelligent, lacked motivation, wasn’t attractive or sexy, wasn’t pleasant to be around. He succeeded, for a long time. Until I started wondering why he needed to battle me so. #Narcissist
Resolving a new trigger: My brother’s engagement
My brother proposed to his girlfriend a few weeks ago. When I first was informed, my immediate reaction was overwhelming happiness. Then, suddenly and unexpectedly,
Narcissistic Recovery: Yoga
I stayed in downward dog today for the entirety of the time the instructor asked. I took each deep breath. I centered myself physically and