My brother proposed to his girlfriend a few weeks ago. When I first was informed, my immediate reaction was overwhelming happiness. Then, suddenly and unexpectedly,
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Narcissistic Recovery: Yoga
I stayed in downward dog today for the entirety of the time the instructor asked. I took each deep breath. I centered myself physically and
Depression and Narcissistic Recovery: Does Blogging Help?
Too many of us keep ourselves hidden. Too many of us learned it’s what life requires of us. Don’t be sensitive. Don’t have big emotions. Push your feelings away. Maybe, just maybe, I want to show my writing to the world because I want to scream a big hearty FUCK THAT to all those notions and to inspire others to do the same.
Letter from my Older Self to my Current Self
Dear Current Self, It’s been thirty years since we lived with the Narcissist. Thirty years have gone by. The whole horrible experience seems like such
Narcissistic Recovery: Cognitive Function
I’ve been very frustrated with my writing lately. Whenever I sit down to write I have a blog post as a goal. I’ve lost my
Vacationing Without the Narcissist
Oh, vacations. Vacations were when it was the two of us and we would feel more connected, more bonded. Right? Yet that’s never how it
When the PTSD Hits (Warning: Potential Triggers)
I did not have a full-blown PTSD episode yesterday. I was able to navigate it and stay present. I had a toothache and I went
Reflections After a Year of No Contact
I’m not healed yet, but I’m better than I once was. A year ago yesterday I wrote a long post about having made it through
Finally, No Contact
It’s been eight months since the day he threatened violence if I didn’t obey him, and since the day I ended our relationship. Two days ago, I was finally able to go no contact.
Astrology and Recovery from Narcissistic Abuse
I am a Virgo Sun (Libra cusp), Leo Moon, Cancer rising. To those in the know about astrology, this describes many important things about my
Asking for Support
Yesterday, I finally reached out to my tribe and asked for support. I was afraid of mockery, but I realized keeping to myself was reinforcing thought patterns saying I was unworthy of kindness…
Dear Facebook
Dear Facebook friends and family, I’ve been dishonest with you. I’ve withheld truths. I brought you along on last year’s journey through posting in a
Memories: First Day of Freedom
One year ago was my first full day of freedom. I had moved out of the home I owned with the Narcissist. I moved while
Narcissistic Recovery: Move-Out Day
I moved out of our house one year ago today. One year ago was the last time I sat on my old red couch. It
Stay at home girlfriend
He wanted me to be a stay at home girlfriend. With his next raise, the next promotion, the next job. That was when he would