It is Sunday evening of Thanksgiving weekend and I have a glass of eggnog heavily dosed with brandy beside me. My Christmas tree was bought
Tag: narcissistic supply
It’s okay to still be angry
Even years after going no contact the abuser will pop into your head sometimes. And it’s okay to feel a burst of rage at them.
Story ideas: imagined interactions
I still have conversations in my head with the exN a lot. (exN = the narcissistic ex-partner, otherwise referred to as, “the Narcissist.”) Often, I
The Horrible Hilarious Herb Scissors Happenstance
Day of joy post: June 13, 2017 I am unpacking in my new home. My things have been in storage for two months. It has
Finally, No Contact
It’s been eight months since the day he threatened violence if I didn’t obey him, and since the day I ended our relationship. Two days ago, I was finally able to go no contact.
Narcissistic Recovery: And then one day, you feel okay.
If they tried to assert their dominance like they used to, you wouldn’t care anymore. You would see them for who they are; a scared, frightened, cowardly soul who is unable to confront the reality of their existence.
Narcissist Recovery: Boldness and the Return of Confidence
The Narcissist told me I was nothing. He led me to believe I was unintelligent, lacked motivation, wasn’t attractive or sexy, wasn’t pleasant to be around. He succeeded, for a long time. Until I started wondering why he needed to battle me so. #Narcissist
Resolving a new trigger: My brother’s engagement
My brother proposed to his girlfriend a few weeks ago. When I first was informed, my immediate reaction was overwhelming happiness. Then, suddenly and unexpectedly,
Letter from my Older Self to my Current Self
Dear Current Self, It’s been thirty years since we lived with the Narcissist. Thirty years have gone by. The whole horrible experience seems like such
When the PTSD Hits (Warning: Potential Triggers)
I did not have a full-blown PTSD episode yesterday. I was able to navigate it and stay present. I had a toothache and I went
Reflections After a Year of No Contact
I’m not healed yet, but I’m better than I once was. A year ago yesterday I wrote a long post about having made it through
Finally, No Contact
It’s been eight months since the day he threatened violence if I didn’t obey him, and since the day I ended our relationship. Two days ago, I was finally able to go no contact.
Narcissistic Recovery: Move-Out Day
I moved out of our house one year ago today. One year ago was the last time I sat on my old red couch. It
Stay at home girlfriend
He wanted me to be a stay at home girlfriend. With his next raise, the next promotion, the next job. That was when he would
Relationships, Revelations, and Healing
I looked at the new supply’s Facebook profile again yesterday morning. I look every once in a while with the hope I’ll see some indication