Apparently, overtraining is a Thing. And since I’ve never been able to sustain a decent workout routine (see previous posts about learning about a leg
Tag: recovery
Day 45: You Are Loved
As I write this, it’s 4:45 pm on Friday evening. It is Valentine’s Day. I’m alone with my cats and drinking my second glass of
Day 36: Going out alone
Yesterday’s achievement was I went to a movie. That’s it. That’s the accomplishment. I love going to movies and have told myself for many years
Taking care of business
Yesterday morning, I bemoaned not having a partner to help me while I’m laid up with back pain. Later in the day, I found a
Blinding Pain
“Blinding pain” is one of those expressions one reads and hopes to never fully understand. It’s an apt description, though. There is a certain degree
A Day of Agonizing Pain
Is it normal for problems to become even more agonizingly painful shortly after starting physical therapy? At much urging from friends, I finally looked into
It’s okay to still be angry
Even years after going no contact the abuser will pop into your head sometimes. And it’s okay to feel a burst of rage at them.
Relaxing about appearances
People often don’t understand how much preparation and forethought I put into how I look for random gatherings and events. It isn’t consistent. It varies
Missing a Best Friend after a Break Up
Eight years ago this week I broke up with my best friend of twenty-five years. It had to be done. She had been verbally abusive
Story ideas: imagined interactions
I still have conversations in my head with the exN a lot. (exN = the narcissistic ex-partner, otherwise referred to as, “the Narcissist.”) Often, I
A Relief From Responsibilities
Every year in July, my company holds a conference. Clients fly in from around the world for three days of lectures, workshops, training, and food
Love Doesn’t Mean Leaning
After a while you learn the subtle difference Between holding a hand and chaining a soul, And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning And
Narcissist Recovery: Boldness and the Return of Confidence
The Narcissist told me I was nothing. He led me to believe I was unintelligent, lacked motivation, wasn’t attractive or sexy, wasn’t pleasant to be around. He succeeded, for a long time. Until I started wondering why he needed to battle me so. #Narcissist
Letter from my Older Self to my Current Self
Dear Current Self, It’s been thirty years since we lived with the Narcissist. Thirty years have gone by. The whole horrible experience seems like such
Sex and Self Respect
I plan to see the gentleman again this week. It will be the third time we see each other. I am having anxious thoughts about