This holiday season was weird and I want to make some notes to refer back to next year. I cared less about it than I have in the past. I assume this is because of the Wellbutrin. My moods are more even. Highs that used to feel ultra high are far less intense. This took … Continue reading Reflections for next holiday season
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Thanksgiving Day Diet Strategy
This is not another piece about how to maintain one's diet through the holidays. This is a piece about saying fuck it to that nonsense. I've lost 15 pounds since August and that's pretty great. I've found nutritional strategies that work for me both physically and emotionally. Here's why it's working, though, and why I … Continue reading Thanksgiving Day Diet Strategy
Depression and… feeling thankful?
It's easy to lose sight of good things when in the midst of a depressive spell. Please remember this: one can be thankful without feeling happy. I am thankful for my friendships. For the roof over my head, the hot water and heat that both work, the clothes I wear, the privileged life I lead. … Continue reading Depression and… feeling thankful?
Glad To Live in a World with Octobers
Autumn is a new beginning. Not just because of the ingrained rhythm of the beginning of the school year, but also, the Jewish New Year and my birthday. Everything starts fresh in autumn. Plus, autumn brings cooler temperatures and clothing styles I am more comfortable in. Nothing puts me in a good mood quite like … Continue reading Glad To Live in a World with Octobers
Fear of Writing While Depressed
Suppressed emotions during depression cause a fear of writing. Depression and writer's block go hand-in-hand. It isn't until the suppressed emotions are uncovered and addressed that a depressive spell lifts and writing can begin again.
Getting Unstuck
I've come out of this most recent depressive cycle and I'm happy. I've been enjoying a wonderful weekend. I've spent time with a variety of friends and I'm filled with gratitude. This is, in part, because I thought to increase my vitamin D dosage from 3,000 mg/day to 5,000. I noticed a difference almost immediately. However, … Continue reading Getting Unstuck
I’m Done. Enough.
As I leave work each day I have been reveling in the beauty of the sun. Seeing it higher and higher in the sky as the days pass is a symphony. It is fine dining, it is a pile of wriggling puppies, it is a warm hug and it is the nicest wine I've ever … Continue reading I’m Done. Enough.